Sat Nam Dear Family,
I first started driving the Master in 1976. By the next year I felt comfortable enough to be somewhat intimate. On one such occasion, I asked a question which everyone would want to hear the answer to. Let me share the communication.
It was a time so elementary in our history that I was the only one in the car with the Master. It was a different era. We were driving to a meeting with a gentleman who was the head of a spiritual community and was now in trouble and asked the Siri Singh Sahib to help. Believe it or not, this was a periodic duty and always interesting. For instance, the meetings usually took place at the other teacher’s establishment so as to not create any confusion as to who was visiting whom. But, that’s another story. So, off we went to Santa Monica.
On the way and after much thought, I finally turned to the Master and asked, “Sir, may I ask you a personal question?” “Sure,” was his sing song response. “Well,” I continued rather sheepishly, “How do you stay celibate? I mean. what thought process do you use?” Please remember, this was before I was married. He answered, “I have a responsibility to myself, my family, my students, my Guru, and my God to do my duty and maintain the integrity so no incrimination is valid. In addition, I take great honor in that everyone wants me and I’m not available.”
That was a satisfying answer, but it seemed that there was more to the story. I found out a few years later there was, much more.
In 1983 I was attending his twice weekly class in L.A. on a warm August evening when a whole new perspective came into focus. Again, just one short phrase spun my reality into his. Somewhere in the middle of his lecture he said, “Your semen is your creativity, use it as you may.”
I’d heard this yogic aphorism many times and had adopted it as mine as well. But, now, his words tingled in my being. The awareness of the implication was staggering. My perception of what he said starts with the immediate awareness that his original answer was meant for me at that time and space so that I could move on and that the real reason for remaining celibate was far more challenging. Wow, what a teacher.
And, what is this “creativity” that takes the place of good old fashion sex? It turns out that this elevated form of creativity is not about being a better painter; rather, it’s about becoming the painter of your life. It’s the ultimate experience of having the creativity to know what to do, and how to do it, at all times. This intuitive knowledge backed up by deductive reasoning makes a person “healthy, wealthy, and wise.” In other words, the more you experience this consciousness, the more above the mundane world you stand. I knew that’s what I wanted.
The further implication was that you can use your semen inside or outside, that’s your choice. There’s no judgment attached. What is attached is the awareness that, at some point, keeping your semen under control allows you to keep your mind lubricated with the elixir of creativity. The more you experience this creativity, the more you realize that the sacrifice of some temporal pleasure is necessary in order to propagate your perpetual creativity. Here’s the good part, this sacrifice is no longer painful as you just can’t wait to understand and experience your creativity more and more.
And, here’s the big implication: This is what I will eventually have to do. Well, I thought, take it slow and get yourself prepared.
And here’s the fantastic part, the Master taught it all perfectly by only using his intuition. He didn’t have to go to the trouble of planning teaching experiences; his life was a setup for this duty.
I watched his intuition exercised with many over the years, so, now, when I’m the object of his current focus, I had no trouble seeing and accepting what was expected. I looked forward to it, only, not starting today! Well, the longer you wait, the longer you wait.
M.S.S. Hari Jiwan Singh Khalsa,
Chief of Protocol